Bouncing Back from Post Natal Depression (PND)

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I remember the moment I decided to reach out for help very well. It had been months earlier that I had begun to experience the signs of PND (Post Natal Depression) which were triggered by the loss of my job. I worked once a week on Saturdays. I loved my job and I loved my colleagues.

I remember the moment I decided to reach out for help very well.

But, before I go further I want to acknowledge something. Something that everyone would ask once I had become a mum – what it’s like.

“What’s it like being a mum?” they would ask.
“Is it hard?”
“Do you love it?”
“Are you just blissed out all the time?”

My response to those questions was always the same.

It’s everything all at once.

My Response to Being a Mum

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It’s boring, it’s blissful, it’s tiring, it’s life-changing, it makes me stronger, it wears me out, I love staring at my son trying to work out the miracle that is his life beginning within mine, I love dropping him off at daycare for the day to have 7 glorious hours to myself.

It’s everything all at once… I mourned deeply for my past life.

And these are just the emotions that I went through this morning. That’s partially why it took me so long to ask for help. The everything all at once, became too much. I had abruptly lost my one outlet of creativity, social interaction, abandon and play. I felt useless.

The pendulum ceased to swing.

All of a sudden I started to resent my husband for being able to work. For being able to put his mind to use. For being able to go to the toilet alone and drink hot tea at his desk in silence.

I became increasingly unable to cope with minor challenges such as settling my son at nap time. I no longer surrendered to his need to breastfeed on demand. And sadly, ceased breastfeeding. I literally shut down.

I mourned deeply for my past life.

That 'Moment' Came

I put my son in his cot and broke down. I cried and howled for the longest time.

And then that moment came. My son was teething, he wanted comfort and wanted us to be close to him constantly. But I couldn’t ride it out, I had nothing left.

My anger and frustration rose and rose and I was directing it ALL towards my son. It was his fault I felt like this. I will never forget that feeling, that horrible feeling I felt towards my sweet boy who just needed me to give him comfort and safety in my arms.

The words of my Maternal Health nurse rang in my ear. “Just put them down and walk away. Take 5 minutes” she said.

I put my son in his cot and broke down. I cried and howled for the longest time.



I Saw a Psychologist

The pendulum started swinging again.

I still couldn’t articulate how I felt to my husband (or anyone) but a few weeks later I had my first appointment with my psychologist.

“Of course!” she said, “the techniques you used to overcome conflicts before you had your son don’t work anymore!”

With the help of my psychologist I put new techniques in place and addressed some deeper personal wounds which had been opened since becoming a mother.

The pendulum started swinging again. I regained my confidence and launched my business Bouncing Back From Birth. I was useful again and found joy in connecting women with exceptional products to increase their comfort after birth and finding solutions for common postpartum complaints.

If you recognise any of the feelings described above in yourself or a loved one, get talking. Reach our to your GP, MCHN or someone your trust. You deserve to thrive too.

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Heather
2 years 1 month ago

How well you describe the feeling of it being everything at once. Even without having postnatal depression, I have felt this way some days. Its exhausting being a mum. Rewarding, but exhausting. Possibly the hardest job in the world.

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2 years 1 month ago

Thanks for you comment Heather, you are so right. <3 It's so important for others to read this and be aware. All Mums are brave just getting through the exhaustion as well as the physical and emotional changes of having a baby.

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